Imagine one day you wake up and realise that you are living half a life filled with half-truths, half commitment and half personalities. What if I told you that this is the reality most of us live? It has become normal to allow everything without needing depth. How can one accept a life made of halves? Where to know is just a fragment of your imagination and a lost expectation. We have become lost in the veins of life, where slowly what was a given fact becomes a rarity. To let others give us just a bit is absurd yet acceptable nowadays. We have become Instagram feeds, where the content is chosen, and the reality is hidden. Searching for realness in a world where information is extinct has become a luxury to few.
In a fast-paced society where information must be quick and consumed in seconds, we have become obsessed with our branding as well as distracted with the reality of life offline. Growing up, I was told that close friends are the ones that stick by your side through stick and stone, the ones that will always follow a goodbye with a hello. This is why I become astonished with friendships nowadays — people accept the fact that they only have the privilege to see a part of their closest friends. Spilling their soul´s truth, they receive a mask in return. Have we become so desperate for attention that we no longer care what type of people we call close friends? Starting a friendship, an invisible agreement is signed stating that you both should evolve together. Although in reality, we are used for a particular trait they want. Now I ask you this, isn´t it frightening how we agree without thinking twice to be a half friend?
When in love, there should be the possibility to explore every part of each other’s mind that one desires. As a relationship grows, both parties become transparent to each other. I watch inconsistencies in this logic nowadays, in small hiccups that camouflage themselves in the daily routine of a relationship. For example, what if you realise that you have chosen someone with no dark side? There is a part inside you that feels an itch you can´t scratch, questioning this absence of truth. Your partner doesn´t hide, they don´t fear or handle darker demons. This is a person that doesn´t talk about the wars inside them. You only see their angel, concerning the absence of a beast. You wonder about the humanity of a person that only sees superficial light in a harsh world. The problem is you believe that you are with the purest human being. You look up to their beautiful soul not knowing that there is a whole other part omitted. You commit to a strange purity, suspecting they hide their demon. You show them the salsa yours dance knowing they won´t show theirs. People don´t mind being years with someone that won´t open up to them. Reading this, you might think the person is oblivious of that side of the other person, but they are merely ignoring their subconscious.
When someone is devoted, they should deliver you their heart. All other human beings should be just mere creatures, not tempting souls. People welcome someone who doesn´t look at them, that can´t resist looking at everyone that passes by, their phone is a flirting machine, and you can feel you don´t give you their heart. The oversold story of half-truths holding thousands of omissions. The truths are not real, there are floods of omissions and the main rule is silence. This is a person that gives you fake commitment, telling you what they know you want to hear – basically living with a parrot that manipulates you to follow them.
Have you felt an eagerness for a text, trembling for a kiss, anxiety to hear more than me too? This lack of commitment is one of the most common. Needing to fight for a little bit of attention, becoming so needy that the smallest show of affection makes a smile last for a week. It is astonishing how this is accepted, the need for this person is so huge that it is not recognized the lack of need they have for you. The thing is that in a relationship both partners should have the others mind, body and soul all dedicated to them. People accept the half commitment, a person who is not all in. It is a disgrace, a purely painful heartbreak to be with someone who is just a bit yours. So I just have one question, what has happened to us for this to become normal?
